I'm sat on the bench of dreams - the bench I always go to when I need to reflect, to see how small I truly am, and to take a step back. It's a beautiful view of the city's skyscrapers, with St. Paul's standing tall and the lights from Canary Wharf glowing in the distance.
It makes me think: what's the purpose of all this? What am I trying to do? Where am I going?
The nicest part of this view is the red London buses passing over the bridge. They're so frequent, so quintessentially British - I love it.
Right now, I'm trying to make sense of how I feel before starting my new job. These are my last days of freedom, and my mind is full. It's important to remind myself that everything I've done, every step of my journey, has been a blessing. Looking back, the dots connect. But when you're in the moment, you're at the will of a force greater than yourself - you never know what the next step will look like.
Leaving a job feels like a leap of faith. You just hope it works out — that you'll do well, impress people, and not fall to imposter syndrome. Can I actually do this? Why me? There are people so much better, so much smarter.
But then I remind myself: be grateful. Grateful for the opportunity. And seize it - because who knows what the next door will look like, or where it will lead.
So, the first step is gratitude.
The second is confidence. I'm realising I'm no longer a kid - not the fresh graduate stepping into consulting. It's time to step up, to approach things with confidence, not naivety - with the willingness to learn and give it my best shot.
Finally, it all comes back to purpose.
Why am I pursuing this? Why am I going into startups? How does this tie back to who I am?
If my purpose in life is to be a force for good and use the blessings I have been given for good, then I need to do it in a place that aligns with my character and the skills I possess. A place that allows me to thrive mentally, to do my best work, and to give back. Maybe that's by inspiring others, creating jobs, creating opportunities -building things that bring value into the world.
And maybe it's also about helping others rise too.
I want to get into a good routine - physically and spiritually. I want to maximise the impact I can have in this role, in a place where the scope is so undefined. I want to learn from the founders, build deep connections in the startup world, and get close to the technical side so I can understand how the company truly works, inside and out.
But most importantly - I just want to have fun. To enjoy the process. To embrace the unknown.
These are my raw thoughts, two days before starting at Incident.
Friday, 29th August 2025.
Age 22.